So, my partner and I have been trying to conceive a little over 1 year, I know it’s not too long, I don’t know if I can do it anymore.

In august 2019, we found out we were pregnant with our first, emotions were high, it was just amazing. 4 weeks after finding out, September 2019, we were in hospital with a miscarriage. Just devastating, it was a horrible experience and just so emotionally draining also.

In January 2020, we found out we were pregnant again, the second time. Again, we were delighted , utterly over the moon. A couple appointments go by, a couple months .. yes this is it! Our first 12 weeks scan is delayed by one week, no biggie, we can wait! A couple days go by, and we’re in hospital again, not for our scan, but another miscarriage.

This time , worse. It’s was horrifying , I stayed in hospital a few days until I eventually got better. Finally coming home to my partner , we just haven’t been the same since. We are both so emotionally drained.

Today (April 2020) I have started my first period since November 2019. It’s awful, I just don’t want to do a thing !

I don’t know if I want to try again, I don’t think we could go through it again if we were just to have another miscarriage. I’m stuck , and I don’t know where to start with everything.