I was diagnosed with depression about a yr ago, but I have been dealing with it since 2014. Once I left home togo to college, it heightened, but then I got used to being away from home and found that being away from home was so much better bc i had room to breathe. I started having less depressive spells. My sleeping pattern got back to normal. I actually started eating correctly again.

Then when I would visit home, i would be at sweet frog eating froyo every day sometimes 2 or 3 times a day. I was sleeping all day and I was crying to my bf about self loathing things.

I went back to school and then when the country started shutting things down for the corona virus, I ended up back at home. My condition got worse when my parents decided they wanted a divorce. They fight and scream at each other everyday.

Now everything is so much worse. I literally have so much on my plate that I am sleeping all day. I'm not eating, and when I try to my body immediately rejects it. I cry myself to sleep every night. Now I'm having suicidal thoughts... i literally have no idea what purpose I have on this earth anymore other than to lay in bed and cry all day