Long post sorry!

I haven't really talked to many people about this, and I also haven't done a lot of reading as I didn't want to scare myself more whilst being vulnerable.

But I wanted to share my experience incase there are other moms out there going through the same thing.

I already have a 3 year old, last year we had a chemical pregnancy, then we lost a baby at 13 weeks pregnant a few months later. It was a hell of a year, then in November we found out nearly 4 years to the day after my son we were pregnant again. Come my 12 week scan in January, everything looked great until the end of the appointment. We were told the babies NT reading was a little higher than normal 4.3mm so would need to be referred to the fetal department for more testing. After a second scan appointment where the reading was even higher we were asked if we wanted further testing and to prepare ourselves for unthinkable decision. I came back a week later to have CVS test done.

The next 2 weeks were hell for myself and my husband, we talked through every scenario possible and how we felt about it all. Either way we were both on the same page through this rollercoaster of emotions. Our first results came back clear and then a few days later our microaray results were also clear.

Now we just needed to be monitored and have extra scans incase there was a heart problem. At the first detailed scan the NT measurement had reduced already and was within normal range.

On Friday after weeks of many emotions you don't expect to have when pregnant, we were finally signed off from the fetal department. I am 23 weeks pregnant with a beautiful boy and we are going to try and just enjoy the rest of the pregnancy somehow. It all doesn't seem real and it probably wont until we get to hold him in our arms.

We are due the day before my son's birthday! So we feel its meant to be. August is our special month.

Thank you for reading my son is excited for our 🌈 baby x