i feel like i’m socially inept

i’m 18. i just have such a hard time relating to my peers sometimes?? like i don’t really have any close friends- not anyone i hang out with outside of mutual circumstances anyway.

i don’t really even talk to anyone from high school. when i have been involved with a group of friends, i feel horribly awkward and conscious of everything i’m doing: how i’m sitting, how i’m speaking, etc. i don’t really relate to a lot of things that are discussed, or maybe i’m not as interested idk.

when i do try to speak in a group of people, it’s very difficult for me to get any word in because those already speaking are so involved in their conversation that by the time i try to contribute, someone else is already responding.

i don’t really hang out w them anymore (they weren’t mean or rude!! i just didn’t feel like we had anything in common). it’s a recurring theme though. it’s not that i don’t want to try to have friends. i just can’t relate to people (aside from in mutual circumstances like a class). i don’t feel like anyone expresses interest in having me as a close friend either- not that they have to! everyone is free to do as they please. i just wanted to vent