I’ve been with my boyfriend for 2 and a half years and I’ve been living with him for 1 year. I’ve done nothing to deserve this. I’ve been good. I’ve been faithful. I’ve been loving. I’ve been going out of my way to be everything he needs. I’m so angry at him.

For about a week straight he’s been going out more than usual and coming home late. I look at the time and it’s 1AM and he’s not home. 2AM and he’s still not home. 3AM and he’s not home. He wouldn’t come home until it hits 4AM. And I always believe him. He said he’s going out with his friends to the club. He’s with his dad. And I didn’t find anything suspicious because that’s what he always does. He sends me videos and keeps me updated. It wasn’t until the final day my friend has a girl on Snapchat and this girl posted him. She kissed him on the cheek and they were hugging. The next video was of them hugging together and they were about to kiss and then the video cut off. I instantly felt shocked and betrayed. I didn’t know what to do because I live with him. My mom is my only family and unfortunately she doesn’t have enough space for me to move in. Also the apartment she lives in are not allowing new people inside because of this virus. Giving that into thought I texted him and told him I know about this girl. He immediately came home. And you know the usual apology and saying he fucked up and that he was just being stupid and he will never talk to her again. Of course none of that makes me feel better. Because now the relationship is over. And I can’t ever see him the same way or talk to him the same way or love him the same way. This was last month. When I’m able to move out, which I hope will be soon, I want to lose all connection with him because I’m still very hurt of what he did. I’m also scared because now I have to start the next chapter of my life without him. I’ve dated him for 2 years but I’ve known him for about 3 and a half. And I know I’m going to cry a lot. I’m not ready to feel the pain of not having him anymore. I can search on google on how to get over a breakup but I’d rather ask on here if anyone has ever been in a similar situation, and what helped you get over it. What helped not go back to that person who hurt you? What helped you keep you happy? Because this is the hardest breakup I’m ever going through. I hate how much I opened my heart to him because he just took it from me.