I've Made A Discission Now I'm Getting Divorce

I'm gonna keep it simple. I cheated on my husband. I felt a lack of communication and spark in our marriage and instead of communicating, I chose to cheat. He found out. He has pictures I've sent the guy and the guy has sent me. One of them gave my syphilis which my husband caught. That is what happened. I'm not asking for a pity party. Too many women on here post about cheating and play victim. We CHOSE to cheat. We pay the price. I've seen women ask how to stop the divorce... We can't. I cheated on my husband and begged him to stay. I loved him, but he said he couldn't do it. I made the choice not to tell him how I feel and fucked someone else, now I must live with the consequences. If I had another chance I would never do it again. You women who's men decided to give you another chance, are you gonna stop cheating? If not just let them go and stop hurting them. What I did was awful. I don't believe cheating makes you trash. What makes you trash is playing victim and having no regrets. Being sorry you only got caught. I chose to move out because he deserves the house we built all those years that I destroyed in a second. I am telling you this so you can learn. If you have cheated. Stop dating and get your shit together. If you are cheating. Tell your party. Let them decide what they want. Do not manipulate a man into staying with you. I destroyed someone and I have to live with that for the rest of my life. Which is why I started therapy. Now you whiney chicks playing victim when YOU cheated. Get off your high horse and get some help. Your divorce is your fault. Whether or not you can save it is up to your partner. I couldn't save money. We made our bed. Now we lie in it. I will never do someone that way ever again...