Fertile window time

Starting to dread it, honestly. Almost 2 years of trying and trying to stop thinking about it, but every month when my fertile window comes around I know I’m going to track and try again. Sex is still fun and hasn’t become a chore, but the sadness I get every month when I’m not pregnant is becoming too much and I just don’t want to feel it anymore. Thankful my husband is so supportive and full of love, but I know he’s putting on a face for me and I feel like letting him down every month no matter how much he reassures me that isn’t so.

Just sucks 🤷‍♀️ baby dust to all!