Hey loves don’t know where to start , last night my husband and I finally got into our last fight , he treats me & my girls like shit & honestly the love has been gone but I cant seem but help to be sad . I hate being alone I was with him since 16 I’m now 19, it really hurts me . Today he left with my money said he was going to the store & called his mom to get him. I’m feeling a bunch of emotions I feel empty really , we have been having bad fights constantly back to back , I wanna believe it’s not over I wanna believe it will work out with time. I really think this time tho it’s done I tried everything to get him to stay but he didn’t even wanna talk to me , the marriage was shit I hit him he hit me we’ve separated before but only for a few days .. said he really needed his space and that’s fine I guess I just .. I miss his voice I miss his hugs I try to think of all the good to dwell out the bad but he just left me.. I mean I left him the first time so I guess I know how it feels now I don’t wanna be a stalker I got mad changed all his fb information email etc , there’s nothing more I can do his mom even texted mine saying “I got my son he will start over with his clothes”.. it hurts so bad not to be around him but why am I beating myself up ? He hit me called me names was abusive , I never thought he’d be the one to leave me tho..on the bright side if he didn’t go I wouldn’t have ever left , I love him or the thought of being with him i know time I know it’ll get better but it’s just been some hours and it really hit this time like he’s not coming back and there’s nothing I can do .. my emotions are all over the place moving back in with my dad no money no car the same way I left at 16. I feel like I wasted so much time my heart is in pieces my mom just screams why do you want him why are you crying cry to push foreword and that’s fine and all but damn this hurts. I guess I should give him his space I’ve been messaging him but no reply , it’s a lot truly I know in my heart it’s for the best I’m just sad an empty alone and hurt ..