Why is this so hard 😭

My ex and I broke up a couple days ago & this is honestly one of the hardest things I’m going through. He was my best friend and I miss him so much. Nothing feels good right now.. my family got pizza & chicken wings for dinner yday and it was whatever, we got dessert today and I barely enjoyed it, I got smarties today to eat while I Netflix (and prob cry) and I don’t even feel like eating them now .. these are things I love.. today was worse than yesterday - yday I cried once (before I went to sleep) and today I cried so many times and I couldn’t keep my tears in which was so hard to do in front of my family.. is this normal? I’m a little worried.. never really felt this way before & it truly sucks.. I keep thinking what he’s doing and if he’s okay esp during this covid stuff and online exams .. any advice ? Does it really get better 😭