Lately I’ve been feeling really down . Like I’ll wake up with the nastiest attitude not wanting to be bothered with anyone and kinda just wanna lay around . Then there’s some days where I’m all happy and ready to be around the only friend that I have and out of no where I’m sad again . I can’t really explain it but I just wanna cry ! I feel like I need help I need to talk to somebody professional maybe or just someone who understands !

- then my husband of 3 years could’ve possibly gotten someone pregnant while I was pregnant a year ago she moved away ! And haven’t heard anything from her . And apart of me feeling as if he’s talking to her behind my back . and omg the hurt I feel from that I know plays a huge part of the way I’ve been feeling . But the things is I have a 1 years old with him and all my life I never really had my father and all I want is for her to be able to grow up with her dad every single day . I wanna leave I wish I had the strength to leave but I don’t know nothing else but him ; this sound ridiculously I know .

Why do I wanna cry all the time why can’t I smile ? Why can’t I erase this from my mind I just wanna forget about it all and live a happy life .

And he’s always asking me what’s wrong and I just wanna scream out to him that he ruined me . He destroyed any happiness I had left , he betrayed me the most when I needed him during my pregnancy we planned our baby and now all I can think of is how I probably fucked I’ll her life and once I finally leave him I know he won’t be around her as much and honestly that’s the only thing that’s stopping me