I am am Essential Worker

I work at a bank as a personal banker. Banks are considered essential especially with all of the small business loans and PPP stuff going on because of the virus.

I am so so lucky that I can still work. I am getting overtime some weeks because we are slammed. This week i will work 32 hours but get paid for 44 hours of work because they want a smaller staff as much as they can. It’s a paid day off and I’m so excited.

I know I’m lucky and I know a lot of people are struggling staying home whether it be mentally or financially. Or even physically for those with kids and are trying to home school and maintain a house etc.

That is why I feel horrible when I say that I am SO JEALOUS of those who are quarantined.

I feel like I could really use this time. I am an introvert or a hermit anyway so staying home is ideal. I’m in school still (online so it isn’t affected) and I am drowning in school work and failing my class because I am so tired from working all day and don’t want to do homework. I could use this time to catch up and focus on school. I could use this time to improve my mental health. I was seriously considering and looking into therapy before all of this started and now I am sure no one is seeing anyone. I could just use this break but I have to work. And work is so stressful right now.

Like I said, I know I’m lucky to be working. Not worrying about how I will pay my next bill but I am struggling. I have been struggling and this is not helping.