I started my period today and I’m feeling so discouraged. It happens every month. I start my period, I ovulate, I get hopeful that maybe this is the time and then my period comes. Today I’m just feeling sad.

I feel frustrated because my whole life I’ve just wanted to be a mom. I want to be a mother so badly. I keep thinking about jobs and what should I do? Because really I just want to be a mom and stay home and home school. So I’m in this never ending purgatory. Or so it seems.

I’m definitely emotional today and realize I’m probably being dramatic. I’m just sad.

And I need advice or wisdom during this waiting.