Bear with me.

I am home with my 3 kids all day every day. (Ages 11, 7 and 3 months). Their dad works 8-6 mon thru sat. All I ask when he gets home and after he showers is 30 mins to have me time. Shower. Whatever. Normally I'm good to get maybe 10. As soon as baby cries he gives him to me and says hes hungry even tho he had just eaten. I'm not knocking being home with my kids at all. I love it. But I just want to shower in peace. I haven't showered in going on 3 days. Like wtf. Tonight he decided to get drunk and crashed out at 930. So I'm here still trying to get baby to sleep while arguing with my older ones to go to sleep while hes snoring. I'm frustrated. Its midnight. Baby has been nursing for an hour. I've tried to lay him down 3x and he wont stay asleep. Literally. I just want to shower. That's all. But since everyone is in bed I cant just let baby cry in rocker in the bathroom. (I'm also suffering from ppd so that's not helping either)

UPDATE.

I talked to him about it and he says he will help more. Guess who has rolled his eyes and acts like he doesnt care. I'm about 🤏 to leaving. Like I've gotten up every single night and tended to baby. I am awake all day to help my older ones with school and taking care of baby and cleaning up. I don't get a nap thru out the day. I'm so fed up. I'm sitting in my living room while hes in bed snoring cause I've been trying to get baby to sleep for 3 hours and every time I put him down he cries. I didn't sign up for 4 kids.