I am 24 years old and have been with my boyfriend for the past 2 years but he was also my first love and first boyfriend back in high school. We broke up before college but I always regretted it and never really stopped loving him. After 6 years we finally reconnected and the spark was stronger than ever. I had never felt such intense desire and I would have married him right then and there if he asked. However, things were amazing for the first year but then we started having fundamental differences. I began my career in law enforcement and he was supposed to do the same but instead decided to pursue music. He is working a dead end job at an arcade type of place. We had planned to move out of our hometown together, However, now he has to stay in this city because of his contract with the band and although he keeps promising he will, he's yet to apply to any LE positions or even finish college. I'm in federal law enforcement now and make 40k more a year than he does. He still tries to pay for outings but realistically if I want to go out of town or do anything I have to pay for it. I hate myself for feeling this way but I kind of resent him for staying behind and the fact that if I want to pursue my plans of a promotion I would have to leave him. We have a great relationship, he is kind and loving and the love of my life but my attraction has faded significantly. My sex drive has been down to 0 for the past 6 months when it was on overdrive when we first started. I thought it was hormonal at first because I had my IUD removed or stress related because my career is insanely stressful but maybe its just that I'm not in love anymore. I dont want to break up, he's a great guy and I already made that mistake once in high school. Any advice? Thank you so much in advance.