Why is this so hard?

Tori • 28. Benjamin born 4/17/19. IVF warrior.

We are 2 weeks away from officially ttc 1 year for #2. I got my first natural cycle in 10 years and we started temping and opks again to try and catch ovulation. I don’t think I ovulated. We got our son from ivf so not sure if we will ever be successful. What do you guys think?