We’ve been on this journey for what seems like forever. Every day I feel sad, but occasionally hopeful that it’ll be the day we find out I’m pregnant. (I have PCOS and am currently using Clomid to induce ovulation.)

We’ve been through many hoops trying to conceive, seeing a RE was tough emotionally. I’ve given up the basics : sugar, dairy, and carbs. I’ve followed infertility podcasts and websites where women give up everything in their lives to get pregnant. One even went as far as to say that an organic mattress can cause harm. (I’m a believer in using what God gave us and being as natural as possible, but an organic mattress just isn’t feasible for us, nor should we buy a new one when our’s is a few years old.) It made me feel bad like we could’ve been pregnant years ago if we got a natural one. I’ve given up using nail polish (even natural ones). I feel guilty when I have to buy canned goods without a non BPA label. I rarely drink, but haven’t really allowed myself to have more than one drink and not feel like I could ruin our chances.

It’s insane how much pressure I’ve put on myself during this time. I know in my heart we will have our own children, but it’s in the waiting that I put unnecessary pressure upon myself.

I’m done with it. We will get pregnant and have our babies. (I painted my nails tonight.😉)

Who’s with me?

Tonight I painted my nails.♥️