Can’t really remember having my son

Has anyone else experienced this ? Labor was not progressing I was 4cm when my dr said it would be best to do a c section once it started I was screaming In pain I’m not sure what happened but I know it wasn’t normal they gave me Demerol to calm me down and I don’t remember much after that I only remember bits and pieces of my 2 days in the hospital it makes me sooo sad that I missed out on that experience 😥