So this may be a very long story so I apologise but appreciate anyone who reads it and takes the time to help me out.

So me and my boyfriend... had been best friends for 4 years and started dating in February this year but had been talking for a few months, just took things slow. Everything was great... but... about 3 weeks ago he lied to me about smoking weed, but he made up a massive story to cover it up, and I got mad because he used to be really bad with weed and other drugs but basically quit everything and only does it probably once or twice a month now. But I was just hurt that he knew I know he does it occasionally but still didn’t want to tell me so he promised to tell me everything from now on and not lie, he said he lied because he didn’t want me thinking bad of him.

Anyways the worst part is, one of my best friends was in a car accident last week but I had a nightmare 2 nights before that predicted the crash, my friend is in critical condition still and will most likely never walk again and have major brain damage. Ever since this I haven’t been able to sleep and I have been scared to close my eyes in case I have another nightmare or have the same one,

my boyfriend knew about all this and seemed understanding so he let me stay at his house so I could sleep in his arms and feel safe. That night his mum got very angry over my boyfriends twin going to the toilet because the flush was “too loud” when she was trying to sleep, then my boyfriend came into his room and said his mum wanted him to sleep in the lounge room because we talk to loud, I understood but obviously was even more terrified to sleep although I knew I needed to know it wasn’t his fault at all. I couldn’t sleep until about 5am. In the meantime this happened... at about 1:30am I heard the back gate open and his dog start barking then I heard his voice telling the dog to be quiet, I knew he was sneaking out straight away. And the only reason I could think of was drugs. I texted him saying “i heard you leave what are you doing?” But he never read it. I ended up in tears and was texting a friend, I texted my mum to come and get me Because I just didn’t want to be there when he got back, but the text didn’t wake her up and I couldn’t call her because if the mum heard me talking I was afraid she would come and yell at me. So I stayed awake until 5am when I was just too tired to keep my eyes open. At 5:30am he came into his room and woke me up and tried to cuddle me, I just rolled over and said nothing. At 8am we both woke up and I still said nothing until he opened read my text. When he did he said “so you know I left” I obviously told him how hurt I was and I told him that I couldn’t believe I go to effort to go to his house when he asks me to, and he lied about having to sleep in the lounge room when he knew I needed him, he left me alone in his house scared as heck and in tears, he chose drugs over me, he lied AGAIN after saying he promises he never will again, and he thought everything would be fine. That broke my heart. And I just wanted to say that we were done but I didn’t, I told him to give me time. But idk what to do. I’m not a controlling person I let him hang out with his mates and I can’t stop him from doing drugs but he knows I don’t stand with him on it either, we let each other do our own thing, but why when I need him most and why when I’m with him and why lie to me about it all when it was basically obvious I’d find out. I didn’t just say the main part of this story, because the reason we didn’t get together straight away and we took it slow was because I had a bit going on, but he waited, and didn’t even look at any other girl, because Of that I knew he cared, but then this happened and i wonder if he does care, he has been so so good to me, until this, and it just shattered me. What do you think and what would you do? Once again I’m sorry this is a long story. But if you got this far know I appreciate you❤️❤️