Feel like I'm failing.

I feel like all I do at the moment is shout at my kids, or put movies on so I can hide in my bedroom. I know that's not all I do, but damn it really does feel like it.

I'm almost certain my kids are going to come out of this shit with anxiety problems. My 4 year old is constantly pulling my 1 year old around. I feel like he doesn't listen to a single word I say. No matter how many times I explain it to him he just keeps asking to go to school, or to visit family members.

My 1 year old has started biting my 4 year old because they don't get a break from each other, whereas previously they did.

I don't have a garden. I don't even have a safe outdoor space for them to play in. My living room is not big enough for them to be able to play separately. My 4 year old flat out refuses to play in his bedroom on his own, but their bedroom isn't big enough for all 3 of us to be in there all day. I am constantly washing up (where are all these fucking dishes coming from??). My partner is still working.

I don't even know what I've done the last few days (weeks?), apparently I'm on autopilot now...