I’m struggling bad with My 6 and a half month old baby’s sleep. He won’t nap or sleep unless held.

Nap time if I hold him, he naps 1-1.5 hours. If I put him down he wakes up. He opens his eyes time to time and check if I’m there/holding him.

He sleeps through the night in my bed, don’t even ask about crib, I couldn’t get him to use it. I have to be by his side for an hour or so until he goes in to deep sleep. He wakes up at night, play and falls a sleep by himself most of the time.

If I don’t hold him, light rocking and pat him to sleep,. He won’t sleep. He will stay awake for hours and cry.

I tried every strategies I found online. I don’t like to let the baby cry but still I did. but it’s not working for me. He cries historically, starts coughing and throws up.

That’s what happened today as well. I tried to make him sleep by himself, he started crying and he won’t stop crying. I comfort him, put him down and same thing again. He cried for an hour. I got so frustrated and yelled at him. He got so scared and cried even louder (of course!) We never yell at him. So it was new for him.

And finally I gave in again for the million times. Rocked him to sleep and now holding him.

He is even weeping in his sleep. I feel horrible in every possible way.

I don’t know what I am doing wrong. Why can’t I get him self sooth or sleep by himself. I see my friends.how good their babies are, and how good they are at mommy job.

I don’t know what to do. I and my husband have to be by his side all the time. I don’t get a single minute to myself. I cook or get household chores done after 10 pm when he sleeps deep. Doing all this for months. It’s not getting any better. I don’t have any help. I haven’t slept in months. Every single day at a point I feel like I’m gonna die. Some days I just want to leave everything and walk away. I’m failing my baby.