I had a break down this morning. I live in an apartment and I was taking my black lab out to go potty. He saw a bird and almost dragged me across the ground to get it... he’s really strong. I’m 22 weeks pregnant and it scared me. I was mad when I came inside and I told him to get in his crate (which he usually loves-his safe space) and I kicked my shoes off huffing and puffing.

My husband looked at me and said “you ok? You’re being mean.” And I just lost it.. balling.. because I have been off putting... I haven’t wanted sex nor have I been very conversational lately. I’m snappy and just want to be left alone. I constantly have a new ailment, I can’t sleep, my toddler won’t sleep in her bed and is on me all night. I’m having bad dreams about when baby comes and I’m starting to freak out! I just feel crazy. I can’t explain that to him because all I will receive back is “well you really wanted to be pregnant” ( as a joke) —he makes the worst jokes thinking it will make me laugh... He also jokes when he’s uncomfortable and doesn’t know what to say. God bless him... but he’s right. I have been mean and I did want to be pregnant again! I forgot about all the crazy ups and downs...

I just needed to vent... I don’t know how to release my frustrations and anxiety. I’m locked up in this place.. can’t visit family or friends... and I am starting to feel panicky.

Sorry for the rant.. and I don’t mean to complain or anything... it could be worse..

I guess I wanna know how my other pregnant mamas are doing? How’s your emotions? How are you feeling during this time??

Am I the only one? 🤪😢