6 years of marriage for nothing. I just wanted us to be happy and have a good marriage. We tried for a baby but I wouldn’t get pregnant. I have always wanted to be a mother and have my own little family. I thought maybe it just wasn’t the right time and things will happen when they’re supposed to.. I tried so hard to be a good wife. I did everything I could go be good enough. I made up excuses when he would get physical with me and call me names or yell at me. I thought he just needed therapy and I would stay by his side for support but he didn’t want to go to therapy. Some days were great but when he would get mad.. it was horrible. So many nights of crying and feeling hopeless not knowing why things felt off and weird. I didn’t want to go through his phone and break this “trust”... little did I know what I would find. I tried to do everything I could to make him happy but I was never good enough. I found out he was messaging so many women Instagram and he has so many secret phone numbers. He disgusts me. I threw up when I found out. There’s so much more disgusting things I found out. I was always supporting, i tried doing even the littlest things to make him feel loved... i just wasn’t enough. Once I found out, I left. I’m currently back with my family. I changed my phone number and haven’t had any contact with him at all. Im divorcing him. I’m ready to close this chapter in my life and heal. He gifted me a car but it’s in his name and even when we were together and he would be mad at me, he would hide the keys from me so I couldn’t use the car. Looking back, I feel so stupid. I tried to leave once and he threatened to hurt himself so I stayed and made him promise he’d go to therapy but he never did. I just want this hurt to stop, I want all this overthinking to stop. I just want everything to be okay. I want the hurt to go away..