Am I the only one who is just numb anymore? Don’t wanna be alive, don’t wanna die but also could care less about being dead or alive. I’m afraid to get any bit of help because everything is closed and I live in a super toxic household and if I attempt to take my life, I don’t want the state to take my child away. Some days my child is the only reason I’m alive but I also feel like my child would be better off without me.