I dont even know where to start. I had a very traumatic miscarriage a few months back and had some friends who didn’t even acknowledge or say a word to me when i had my d and c. Then i had friends who told me to happy i got pregnant within a few months it could have been worse. Like they had a year of trying but was able to hold a baby to term. I have no idea if I will ever be able to hold a baby to term. Im terrified. Im angry. Im sad. I feel like i hate everything and everyone. I have serious PTSD that its going to happen again. In and out of the ER for weeks. I feel like I dont have the friend support system i need to get through another loss. All i want is a family but im terrified. I feel so lost. Ive been drinking way to much and eating way to much trying to deal with the pain I feel. Please just no mean comments ladies.