Upper lip hair removal?

Okay guys. I'm 14 years old, and I've never messed with my upper lip hair. I have natural light blonde hair, and it's never been noticeable. Until a month or two ago. It started to bother me more and more, and I just want it gone. But there lies the problem. I've never felt comfortable telling my mom I want it waxed, so I've never brought it up. I wish I did ask, because now it's quarantine, and I can't go, even if I really wanted to. What do I do? I've tried plucking it, but man that hurts. I pluck my eyebrows, but it hurts so bad to do it on my upper lip. I think it's the fact that there's so much hair, but because it's blonde, I can't see it, so I get discouraged because no matter how much I try, it never feels like I'm getting anywhere. What should I do? Is there a diy wax recipe I can make without telling my mom? What about wax paper? I don't have any of that. It's driving me nuts!! Help a girl out, guys!!!