I've been with my husband for 5yrs and married 1yr this January. I'm 24, he's 27. We want to go back to college and at least him get his degree so he can take over my family's business. Well.. I want to have a baby like yesterday tbh and he keeps saying 'it's up to you babe' when I tell him I wanna try now but with this Covid 19 shit and the world is fucking upside down now. My brother and sister in law had a baby in December and my sister is due in 2 weeks and I'm scared for them raising their kids in this and I think if I got pregnant I'd be terrified right now. Also I swear if I got pregnant tomorrow, even if the world was back to 100% normal, my mother would think I was fucking ruining my life 😭😭😭 seriously, my brother and sister in law shes happy for, and my sister shes happy but nervous for. But me?? When my family is talking about them they look at me like 'u better not get pregnant' and if they knew I have fucking cried because of what they have said, maybe they wouldnt be so damn harsh. It pisses me off beyond. I am fucking married, I'm 24 yrs old, I've lived on my own for 5 fucking years with no help from them, and im doing pretty damn good. We dont have millions in the bank but we get by. We are adults and we have been married longer than my sister and shes pregnant and oh they're happy for her! But fucking hell, God forbid I have a kid and they actually he fucking happy about it.

Btw side note: at 12yrs old i was told because i was 'overweight' it would be hard for me to get pregnant one day. At 12!! That's been burned in the back of my head for 12 yrs! So when my own mother basically tells me that having a kid would ruin my life, it hurts. Alot more than she knows