We have to have my MIL

Come stay with us. I am having a repeat csection AND have a 14 month old. Today, I posted earlier that I fell on the tub while giving him a bath. I realized that with a csection, I can’t do it all—care for my wound, my 14 month old, and newborn. No matter how much I want to Pep myself up, I don’t want to risk my wound opening, or a hernia or do something damaging. She’ll have to fly here but at this point, the risk of not having here outweighs the risk of being on my own and having something go drastically wrong. She is social distancing, and will be wearing a whole bodysuit/mask for her flight. I am torn but today’s fall made me realized that I can’t depend on my freshly wounded self to do it all. Send prayers my way. I am so afraid but trust that this may be Gods way of letting me know to accept the help.

My biggest fear is the coronavirus getting transferred to my new baby and toddler :/ but I know I’ll be disabled for 2-3 weeks and can’t physically pick him up. He is 30lbs, doesn’t walk and loves to be carried and ughh this is so hard. It’s like do I risk this virus or risk something happening to my wound and not being able to be there for my babies. Y’all I am about to cry from how stressed out I am about this. I am seriously going through so many emotions. I just wish it was all over. This virus ruined everything.