How do u kno if its Love or just being Effectuated/use to the his company?

I been wit my husband for almost 8 years. I Literally experienced everything wit him. Since the age of 16. Now im 23 & i been so depressed latley.

I dont want nothing to wit him or my kids.

Nothing sounds fun.

I want to be awhile from them everyday all the time.

(As a mother this sounds horrible & its not normal for me either)

I been so self conscious bout myself. Latley he been following all these naked bitches on Instagram. He doesnt make me feel special or pretty anymore. One thing im so self conscious bout is my butt. I literally dont have an ass. & all these bitches he follows have thongs & shit,

All i want is some attention to make myself feel pretty again.