Ever since starting femara/letrozole my periods are like clockwork. Every 30 days between noon and 5 pm. Today is now cycle day 32 no period but tested and got BFN I hate how I let this affect my day I am now super depressed and all I want is to be left alone, I can't talk to anyone. If I tell my husband he gets on my case about how it's my fault because we don't have enough sex. I can't tell friends and family because I'm hopeful that later in the week I will get a BFP or that later in the day AF will come and the whole conversation was pointless. Then I hate hearing the maybe next month pep talk, the keep trying pep talk oh and the worse one just don't think about it and it will happen! It's been 2 years, and yes I know it could be worse but I just hate feeling defeated. I am thankful that I have a very handsome 12 year old boy but I hate that I've never been able to give him a sibling. I hate feeling sad knowing I'm not pregnant yet another month 😭 and now my period is late and I'm like hello get here already so I can stop hoping. Looking at the PT over and over again hoping it changed. Going to the bathroom to see if Af showed up. Using a flash light to see if you can get a better look throwing away the pt to later dig it out of the trash to see if it magically changed. Going into bathroom to get a good cry in because you don't want to cry in front of anyone, giving yourself a pep talk because, you are the only one that knows how this feels. BFN after you went to bed hoping to wake up to a BFP and thinking its finally gonna happen, then you take out the calendar to calculate your due date, then you start reading on and on about the life of the fetus and you go to sleep so hopeful, wake up extra early to test only to come to terms that you got a BFN, I had to come on here to share because there was just no one I could tell how I'm feeling.