My miscarriage story

I just want to share my story somewhere. Saying the words aloud is too hard. I tear up every time.

February 7th, the day before my birthday, I found out I was pregnant after trying for a year. I found out our baby was due on my husband's birthday October 18.

The whole 11 weeks I had nightmares about miscarrying. March 29th I started cramping after a hike. March 30th I called the doctor to see if the cramping was normal or what, they just said rest and drink water. March 31st I was very anxious and tired from not sleeping, so my boss sent me home early from work. I laid around all afternoon and about 7:30pm I got up and saw I was bleeding when I went to the bathroom. I knew.

I spent hours in the ER alone.

After a telehealth visit on April 1 my doctor prescribed meds to pass the miscarriage at home naturally. My body went through full labor water breaking and everything or so it seemed.

After passing the baby for 2 days and the very painful process and emotional process I thought everything was okay.

1 week later I woke up and could hardly walk and was having a lot of pain in my pelvic area. I had still been bleeding from the miscarriage which had turned black and had a bad odor.

After a visit to my doctors office I was admitted to the the hospital with sepsis and had an emergency D&C. I was monitored over night after having 6 different rounds of IV antibiotics and being discharged with 10 days of oral antibiotics.

It's now been 4 weeks since the D&C and 5 since I first started miscarrying. I still have all kinds of emotions about the loss and can just randomly cry. I cry myself to sleep a lot.

If you've read this far I thank you. Just waiting on my period to return, so we can try for a rainbow baby.