Caring shoulder 🥺

I have now one I can talk to. My partner isn't the easiest to talk to and family doesn't know about my ttc journey. Hope someone well hear me out. 🥺I am 42 had my tubes untied last Oct. and lost a baby in Jan. I was 8 wks. Now we are trying again and feeling emotionally drained.😔 I ovulated on the 26th and now playing the waiting game. I'm supposedly 8 dpo. Symptoms like cramping, sensitive breast, tearing up at commercials and strangely last night didn't even want him to talk or touch me.🛑 But the worst thing is this symptoms and also PMS symptoms. Wth! 🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️But my breaking point is today when I pulled my negative tests out the trash and started crying. What is wrong with me? Anyone have any words of wisdom for me. 👩‍🏫