I need help or opinions. I had my 21st birthday the other night. Me, my best friend from high school and my best friend since childhood all got drunk. Neither are friends or hangout, only have me as their mutual friend. I passed out on my bed and woke up in the middle of the night to the sound of my best friends having sex, I could hear both heavy breathing and moaning. I fell back asleep. I don’t remember a whole lot from that night as I got blackout drunk. Regret it so much.

One friend said yes it happened and they were both drunk the other said she doesn’t remember anything because she says she was blackout drunk and reported to the police that it was rape and I’m the witness. I told the officers the truth about what I heard and know.

I’m in a really hard situation. My childhood best friend said my other friend actually came onto her and she said she would never have done anything if she knew she was that drunk. She was alert and awake. And my other friend has no recollection. I could never have imagined my high school best friend to have hooked up with a girl as she has a boyfriend and I could never see my other best friend taking advantage of someone as she has been a victim of sexual assault.

I don’t know what to do. At the end of the day I don’t want to take sides but I know I will lose someone at the end of the day. And I can’t be friends with both because one will think I’m still friends with her rapist and the other thinks I’m still friends with someone who accused them of rape. I can’t eat. It’s eating me alive. I know I didn’t do anything wrong but I feel like shit.