Relationship Struggle During Covid19

My boyfriend and I have been together 5 years. Last year I moved to NYC to be with him. Fast forward to this past March. I planned in Feb to come to FL to visit my family. It was supposed to be a 3 day trip. Trips comes around and so does the virus. He didn’t want me to come and didn’t think it was a good idea because how things were starting to be. But I assured him I’d be fine but I had to come check on my family and make sure they had everything they needed, etc.

Fast forward today, May 12th. I’m still in Florida. I halted on going back to NYC because before the weekend was over the city was shut down. My job was working remotely and I nor my family didn’t feel it was safe to be in NYC.

So of course I want to be with my partner. The pst few days he’s has been asking me when I’m going back to NYC. I’m honest and tell him in a few weeks when things calm down.

Yesterday he called me self. Told me that he feels like I don’t want to go back. And he doesn’t understand why I felt the need to come to FL in the first place.

I kind of shocked at the speech I received. And I don’t know what my exact emotions are at the moment to describe what I feel. Mainly numb.

How should I move forward.

I should add he’s an essential worker and 5 of coworkers has test positive and one passed away.