Hello. I’ve never been in any groups before so I’m not really sure how this all works, but I’m glad to have anyone listen to me. I’m not usually one to talk about myself or problems because frankly, it’s such a mood killer and I would rather focus on positive energy. However, I’ve hit a point in my life where it feels as if things won’t get better unless I change my situation for myself. I love change, but this change would be a difficult one to make. I’ve been in a dishonest relationship for about 5 years now. A marriage at that. My partner has a lot of lying and communication problems and I’ve tried everything I could to build a trust and bond with him, but for some reason he hasn’t shown any progress with those issues. This relationship has made me feel like my feelings don’t amount to anything and has brought me down to a low point in my life. He’s a good guy but for some reason we have not been able to get past these issues. I’ve been over it many times.. many many times. But, my family all say that relationships will have their ups and downs and because I’m the female, I should be patient and understanding enough to see things through. I’ve been very patient and understanding throughout our whole relationship and yet, even when I haven’t done anything wrong, take all the deceit and blame after doing everything I could to make us work, I still have to be the one to mend our relationship. Don’t people know that a person can only take so much hurt? Don’t I deserve someone that will do anything for the person they love as well? Are they trying to normalize this kind of treatment in relationships? Or am I just suppose to continue being someone else’s punching bag until they figure their own shit out. I’m just so tired of all this. This whole relationship has left me mentally and physically drained. I haven’t felt true happiness in 5 years.. I go into depressed stages where I have to pull myself just to get pulled back in by the same person and for the same reasons. I left my life to be with someone I thought loved me as much as I loved him. Only to find out this person is just selfish and only considers his own happiness. I’m going to go put some eye drops in his drink to make myself feel better. Well, thanks for letting me vent. Any advice, suggestions, sharing stories and feelings are welcomed. Thank you for taking the time to read this little post that probably isn’t even anything compared to what some people in the world are faced with.