Any STM more nervous this time around?

I had my first last Feb and while I was so anxious about it, I didn’t really know what to expect. Now that I’m on #2 I think I might feel more nervous than my first! I feel like I’m not ready! I have just about everything I’ll need. I’m just realizing it could be like any day now really bc I’m 36+3. I’ve been having a lot more BH and i dread when I feel them bc I’m just like no not yet! With my first I had what I thought were BH and I ended up having contractions consistently for like 3 days before I had her.