So much depression/anxiety 37 weeks

I’m 37 weeks pregnant and have had mild depression throughout my pregnancy. Nothing I’ve ever mentioned to my doctor because it’s been manageable and I just figured it’s due to hormones and my anxious personality worrying about being a mom, causing me to feel depressed. The closer I get the worse itsbeen getting, I go through bouts of crying uncontrollably because of me worrying about taking care of a baby, not everything being ready, etc. I feel so unprepared... we have a house and the nursery essentials are together, all of the clothes are washed I just need dividers for the dresser drawers so I can organize. And although my boyfriend is amazing is many ways, he’s not at all helpful with me being depressed. I start doing something to get ready for the baby and get overwhelmed and just lay in bed and cry. I’m just so scared, idk what I’m doing. I know a lot of people feel this way. I’m also scared that my postpartum depression is going to be 10x worse...... Idk what to do... there’s nothing really to do but prepare, pray, and wait.. but I’m so close and can’t imagine being a mom... I can’t be the only one