i don’t wanna do this anymore

i feel so lonely. all of my friends are busy and rarely can respond to my messages. my boyfriend takes hours to respond to me, he usually only texts me in the morning and then at night - but only to tell me he’s going to bed.

i’m so lonely i just don’t wanna do this anymore. i feel empty, i have no interest in doing anything anymore, even things i used to love.

my heart is constantly pounding bc of my anxiety, and having no support is only making me feel worse.

i expressed to my boyfriend that i was feeling useless (bc i always am either at school or working but now i can’t be at either), i told him i felt like i wasn’t enough for anyone in my life, i also told him i felt as if i would never succeed.

he tried to reassure me, but also said i need to try an make friends and do things so i can enjoy my life - i have social anxiety and he can’t really understand that. but i just need support, i don’t need to be told that my unhappiness is my own fault and that “i’m lazy”. i already feel that way.

i just don’t know what to do. i’m trying to keep busy, but some days are just too hard and i can’t even get out of bed. i just need support and i have none.