I don’t know who to talk to about this and figured this would be a good group.

I’m a ftm, I’ve always wanted to be a mom. After a loss, I finally have my rainbow baby who is 5 weeks old. I have to admit though that this is so much harder than I ever thought...

Everyone talks about motherly instincts and I don’t think I have it. Most of the time I have no clue what I’m doing. Is this normal? I can’t always seem to figure out why my baby cries and she seems more soothed by her daddy than by me. It breaks my heart. I’m happy to see their bond, but I also want to know what I’m doing and I want to comfort her.

I haven’t been successful at breastfeeding and I feel like some of those issues could be because I have to pump so much and during those times, my husband is the one who is watching her and feeding her (she seems to always want to eat right when I start pumping). Anyways, I just wanted to see if those feelings are normal and if anyone has any suggestions. I love my baby so so much and I just want to be a good mom!