Pregnant for 3rd time! I need to vent

Hi,

I recently found out I am pregnant again! I don’t know how to feel. I am happy and I feel blessed but this baby is a surprise for both my husband and I.

I had my first baby ( a girl) in May 2018 then 15 months later I had my second a boy born August 2019 and now boom another one!

I feel happy because my husband and I have always said we want at least 5 kids but I can’t help but feel guilty and sad for my 2 little ones. I feel like I’m not giving them enough of me if I have another baby right now that’s why this new baby wasn’t planned. I also feel bad because I completely relied on breastfeeding as my birth control and it seemed to be working perfectly 🤦🏻‍♀️ my periods were on time for the past 5 months.

I am also worried that I’ll have complications for having babies back to back I don’t know if that’s a thing. So if anyone has had babies back to back I’d like to know your experience and thoughts.

Anyways I just needed to vent and seek a few words of encouragement. Like i said this baby is a blessing but definitely a surprise well more of a consequence of my husband’s and I reliability on breastfeeding.

Also I am a very young mom I am only 23 and hubby is 26. Maybe my age has to do with my fear at the moment.