Why me....?????

I am 5 months pregnant to make a long story short I’ve been through hell and back with my bf/father of my child. Cheating, lying, beating. He’s now left me frfr after all this! I know me being the dumb ass thinking he was actually changing fr! I just don’t know how to cope right now. I try my best every single day!!!! I really do!! I just run out of hope some days.....