I know it’s wrong, I know I should be stronger as a mother of soon to be 2. As a wife and as a daughter. But I can’t help but think how beautiful death will be for me...no more pain, no more sadness, no more anger, no one can hurt me anyMore. yes I know my family would hurt for me, I love them with all of my heart and just wish I could be the normal daughter, wife, mother they deserve. I’ve been depressed since I was 13. Tried to off myself 3 times unsuccessfully. I’m here. But I’m in pain. I just want to be the happy person they all deserve.