Over the past 4 years, my husband and I have been doing the “not trying, not preventing” thing because my husband didn’t want children yet, but selfishly I did. Every single month I would hope that it just somehow happened instead of considering what my husband wanted. The beginning of this year I FINALLY started letting it go, giving it up to God and praying that he would work not only in my husband’s heart, but also mine. For my husband to eventually want to start a family and for me to be understanding and accept that he wasn’t ready yet. I always felt like we would not have children if my husband was not ready. Like it was not in God’s plan for me to get pregnant without my husband being truly ready.

During my prayers, Matthew 17:20 has been the main verse I have focused everything on for my journey. I struggled with my faith. I was starting to think that maybe God never would let me have a child. Maybe my husband would decide he never wants a child. But I kept the little faith I had, kept pushing and praying and hoping. Then it happened, my husband out of the blue told me he wants to try to have a baby. Right as I was coming to terms with him not wanting one yet and giving it all 100% up to God. The months and years of praying have finally paid off. I’m over joyed. While I’m sure we might have missed the window for trying this month, I’m delighted in the fact that come May26th/27th my cycle will start over and we can finally truly try.

My next prayers will be to receive the blessing of a child like I know God has promised me. When will it happen? I don’t know, but I’ll stand strong in my faith. I just wanted to post this in case it helps someone in a similar situation ❤️ You are not alone. It is tough, but God hears you. Praying for everyone who is currently waiting for the blessing of a child. 🙏🏼✝️