what would you do?

what would you do?

We have been together for four years, from the beginning I knew he had a vasectomy, from the beginning he knew I want children. Conversations were had, about reversals, IVF, etc., Fast forward to three years later, we start trying. Failure after failure, I take a break, fast forward to January of this year.. Come to find out he doesn't want kids. but he is "OK" with it.....

Needless to say, he doesn't want kids. His two are young teens... We are in love, there is no doubt or question about that, but lately he is very focused on himself, almost even, as if I am along for his ride, not ours (if that makes sense..) He even admits he is very self centered. (he wasn't this bad when we started dating.)

So last night I brought up, wanting to be a mom (again)... and he doesn't want that, so the question is, now what?

Would you walk away from what you have? A man you love, truly love,  live together, have a dog, and so much more together...

Or give up, the dream of having a baby, and being a mom? Something you always imagined since you were a little girl.

Lately, without even realizing it when him and I are having conversations, I'll often bring up future events, and things I want to do together. Am I subconsciously answering my own question?

We get one life and I do not want to hit 80 and regret it either way. I am so lost. Either thing I choose I sacrifice something.