She is driving me crazy!

Ever since I joined this new office, I had seen a girl who is like the prettiest person I’ve ever seen! It began as a friendship because I liked her instantly and wanted to reach out to her. She has a great personality too. We are basically 85% alike! After a few days of just knowing each other, we hung out and went for lunch together. It was Valentine’s day! Little did I know that it became our date 🤣

She and I became really close. We spoke a lot about our personal lives. She is super comfortable with me. She calls me her bestie! We even have a place we sneak out to when we need break from work.

So, here’s where the thing is...

I’m in an open marriage (where I only meet girls) and she has a boyfriend whom I don’t like.

When we met, she always complimented me,.. like how young I look, how tall I am... like, my legs are so long etc.

she also seemed curious to know how girls did girls and how threesomes felt...

When I confessed about how I felt, she dismissed having the same feelings for me. I apologized saying that maybe I took some things as hints from her. She said that she didn’t mean to bring feelings between us and said that our friendship is important to her and she doesn’t wanna ruin it because she believes that crushes will fade away. When I asked her “Now, what if you didn’t have a boyfriend right now? Would it be different?”

She said that it would have depended on whether she was into women at that time and whether she liked me like that but she said yes it would have been different.

She and I come to the office early. So, when I go into the restroom to put my makeup on, she sometimes follows me. I try so hard not to hug and kiss her gently. She makes me weak! She has a perfect face and perfect lips. Just my type of girl.

It’s hard to be friends with her. It breaks my heart that one thing that’s so beautiful, I can’t even kiss it ❤️ I want her to be my friend but I also wanna let her know that I wanna be on the side and she can keep me just like I wanna keep her. I don’t wanna ruin the friendship. I just wish she and her boyfriend opened up their relationship too 🤣 I need to get over it and pull myself together. Don’t I? 😂