THOSE DARN TWO LINES!!!

It’s 2:31 am and I can’t sleep, I’m bawling my eyes out in the bathroom, it’s been 5 months since my miscarriage, it was my first pregnancy, and I don’t know how to deal with it, right after miscarrying my sister got pregnant, and now my best friend text me today telling me that she is now pregnant too! Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy for the two of them, but I’m hurting. It’s not fair! I would be a great mother, a great friend, a great listener. My child would have it all! And yet, 5 months later, taking at home ot, taking my prenatals, eating right and I can’t get pregnant again! I’m starting to think, maybe I’m being messed with, why give me something I wanted for so long and take it from me! I’m just so sad I don’t know what to think or feel! I read online it would be easier to get pregnant after a miscarriage but I guess it doesn’t apply to everyone. I’m ranting, but I can’t tell my husband or family this I don’t want them to know I’m hurting.