Over the course of my life, I have always had a problem where eating disorders have risen. However because of the last time I had, it had caused me only to gain weight. I have been able to love my body at its heaviest but I know it’s not what’s best for my body. This year I started the year at 200lbs and for a short girl, that is a lot. I am stuck now where I am 184.7lbs. The first goal for myself is to get to 160lbs not because I liked how I looked then, but because I remember that my body did not hurt as much when that was what I weighed. Am going to be some skinny legend that society wants me to be? No. I’m going to be myself: the person I want to be.