Scared

Before the quarantine started I was going to the gym 4 days a week for almost 2 months and had managed to lose 10lbs, 7inches off my waist, and 3 inches everywhere else. But then when I could go to the gym anymore I stopped trying and I let myself go again. This past week I found out I was pregnant, but I'm honestly nervous because of my weight. Today my scale said I was at 280lbs but a lot of that is from the severe bloating I've been having. Before I knew I was pregnant I weight at about 270lbs. I'm scared and I really wish I could have lost weight first. Now I feel guilty because I want to diet and exercise but I don't want to hurt the baby. I just don't know what to do and I feel ashamed and awful. I don't feel like this pregnancy will be magical and happy. I think I'll just worry about gaining more weight.

Sorry for the rant.