Weight loss journey

So its been a long time. So I'd like to talk about a little bit about my journey since I know at some point we all struggle. And let me tell yah! I've struggled. Sorry this is so long.

My name is Jackie. I'm 29 years old. I've been overweight pretty much my entire life. I have struggled to keep the weight off. In 2013 I got pregnant with my daughter and I lost almost 50lbs i was so sick. After I had her I was so much smaller then when I got pregnant and I felt so good. I lost an additional 16lbs by my 6 week appointment after having her. Thats when I talked to my doctor about birth control and it all went downhill from there. At first I was okay, but my benefits stopped covering the brand I was using and I had to switch to the generic brand. After the switch I started with massive headaches all the time, they wouldn't stop. Then I started to notice the weigh gain. 10, 20, 30.....50 lbs!!! I didnt change anything I was doing. I was still eating fine. I was still staying away from the junk most of the time. But it just kept coming. I talked to my doctor and then he switched my birth control. I was hopeful this was it. Nope. I became angry. Like really angry. One night I put my bottle of water on our window ledge, there was only a little left, and my fiance drank the rest. I was furious. I wasn't really but I felt mad rage. I apologized after and said I dont know whats wrong with me I don't even care. Back to the doctors I went. He suggested another kind, then another and another. I said enough was enough. I couldn't do it. And I was ready to take my life over again.

I tried "another diet" and I couldn't stick with it. I tried and I felt like it wasn't for me. So then I tried another. And nothing. My entire life I had digestive issues with my stomach. Well at this point, guess what got worse? I'd have attacks that were so bad I'd cry and curl up. I couldn't breath. It would frustrate me. Nothing at all I could do. Doctors, and appointments, and tests and medications. Nothing helped me. They said we will keep trying we will figure this out. They never did. They ruled out some of the major things and my doctor said to me it may just be IBS. So here we go. I had to change my lifestyle again.

In 2018 I heard about the "keto diet" and I was intrigued. How the heck can you lose weight by eating fat?! That seemed wrong. And I just didnt get it. So I digged and digged until January 2019 I was ready full force and I created a wonderful group. I felt so good. I was down 21lbs in just over 2 months. I felt amazing. And then I got sick. I had hemmoraging in my throat that caused me major issues. I coulsnt eat. I couldn't sleep. I was stuck on IV for 10 days straight. 24 hours a day. When I finished I felt defeated. Like I lost my grove. But I wasn't ready to fully give up yet. I tried and I failed.

A few months had passed and I said ill try again. I failed.

New years came. And of course my "new years resolution". I failed.

This time I will not fail. Having one meal that isn't "keto" or "low carb" is not a fail. Failing is giving up. Live for tomorrow. Not for today. Keep striving to move forward. Our minds are our own worse enemy. If you tell yourself you won't succeed. You won't. If you tell yourself you can't have that cupcake at your friends birthday, when your alone, you'll eat all 12. If you tell yourself you can't have a cookie, you'll have 10 when someones not looking.

You can do this. You just need to believe you can. I believe in you. Don't do this alone. Always try to have some sort of support system. No matter what it is. A friend, a family, a complete stranger that has the same issue as you. You need someone. I can be that someone if you need it. And you don't need to do keto or low carb. It can be anything! This is just currently what I'm following!

Some of the things that I do that helps me is I make a keto friendly desert every week and freeze it if you aren't going to finish them. Have alot of keto/low carb options. Plan ahead. Don't wait until last minute to plan it is way to hard. You don't have to make it early just plan it early. I started drinking these keto drinks to help me as well. It helps me curb the cravings when I'm snacky or want something sweet.

I hope you realize you are not alone. Other people feel the same. I probably have alot more feelings but I wanted each of you to know Im there for you no matter what!

I'm now on attempt #100 (lol not really but you get it) and this time I'm all in. 29 days I'm down 14.8lbs. I have more energy. I sleep better. And I just overall feel better.

We are in this together. ♡