So I’ve recently left my 5 years long abusive relationship things just got too much. Think something just snapped In my head Like shit this is wrong this persons been beating me making me feel like I’d be better off dead and if this is it, if this is life then Im done.

I’ve been lost for so long and even though I’m out of it now my mind won’t let it go there is literally no peace in my head. He cut me off from my family, beat my dog, hurt me in every way possible made me feel like a crazy person. Made threats to take my kids off me. Constantly wondering what he was going to do next. I’d lock myself in the bathroom and he’d kick it down he’d punch me, bite me, chock me until I screamed and cried and then tell me to stop crying and being pathetic or ‘too sensitive’.

I thought every time we moved house it would be safer but I never realised at the time that it wouldn’t matter because I’m not the only one living in it.

I couldn’t escape constantly locking me in the house or taking my phone off me

People say I should now report it all that getting justice will somehow help but I don’t feel anything and I wonder why cause I’m away from it now but my minds not

I’m a long way from feeling better it’s probably going to be a long journey but I think maybe in time I’ll see the difference

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Today,