Blindsided

I had been with my bf for a little over a year. Something in me prompted me to have a convo with him last Thursday, asking how he felt about me Bc I was having mixed feelings about him Bc I didn’t want to go all in with someone that wasn’t. She made a scrunched up face and was like ehhh. So I asked him to spill it out. First thing he blurted out was “well I want someone that wants to be healthy with me. To grow like that”. (Background: he had a health scare a while back that prompted him to want to lose weight. He sticks to only 1500 calories a day during the week, gets on the treadmill and workouts to 1000 calories. I’ve told him I don’t think it’s healthy. I know a bit about nutrition to know what he’s doing isn’t necessarily healthy. Not to mention he doesn’t eat balanced meals either. It can be like some slim Jim’s for breakfast...or if he wants jack in the box at 11 am he’ll get it and if it’s 1500 calories that’s all he’ll eat. The other night he ate only an entire loaf of bread and oil Bc he craved it. So on Wednesday, I had a long day coaching and all and had two cookies. He found out and gave me a talk about how frustrated he is with my lack of self control and this and that which made me feel like shit obvi) so naturally I knew this was referring to that. But then he started off with saying he didn’t know how he felt. That he doesn’t know what love is...if this is what he feels...he doesn’t know. So basically I was like well you need to figure it out. I told him that he needed to take the next day and talk it through with a friend or something Bc I can’t be the one he talks to about this. Next day I find out he just tells this friend we mutually broke up. 😬 which obvi I was like uhhh... so anywho told him to come get his stuff and all he could mutter our was a sorry I misunderstood and thought that I had been distant and felt like a friendship lately etc. I didn’t say much back Bc they sounded like excuses. Later on another day we spoke and he just made this list basically of things he hadn’t been happy with and I was like why didn’t you communicate anything to me (he doesn’t communicate anything to anyone. Not family not friends. Keeps everything pent up to himself.) I don’t really know how to feel...should I even be feeling anything about wanting to get back together or should I move on. I’m so confused. I tried so hard throughout the relationship to get him to talk about literally anything and he’d always say he was so happy and this was his best and healthiest relationship. So what gives?